fucking up

i feel like im fucking up like never before, and i don't even know why. i feel horrible, again. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me honestly, i wosh i could say more. i thought that my feeling would be at the nerve endings of the tips of my fingers but they're not here either. They're not in my motor muscles in my mouth. Where the fuck!LKJ@HR faghpaerbfglb ahjlrsdgfhcnelhkfjbnoALKRSJHXNoajklhdnlHKJAFBVACLJHSFBV OUEJHLRTF378IURTYH 458EPIRFGHCMXAEIRYS,UCM VF,ACPUIRAS CFJ,XNOSEILHTV C8DY54OWIUFECHVS MOYEAXJR;SHT MDSE,8ODI4 UVHNMC,A

i don't even know.